Since being married I feel like I don't have time like I use to. I have slacked on a lot of things in the last few years. I have been constantly trying to get back on track, but I keep coming up short. Something was said by someone in my ward that really hit me hard and has been a huge reality check. Last spring I was called to be in the Stake Relief Society Presidency, I was extremely overwhelmed by this calling. I have never had a calling in the Relief Society, so I had no clue what to do. Once in the calling we weren't really trained, so I felt like I didn't make a difference. Everything was already decided and it didn't matter what my opinion was. I was told that I would be in the calling for a year. One day Cole got a call to meet with the Stake President and we thought he was getting a stake calling too, but it was me, I was being released after 6 months (the other counselors were also released, so it wasn't just me). I took it really hard, I felt like the president was not pleased with our service and that I wasn't given a chance to make a difference. It took me awhile to get over it. Several weeks later we were hanging out with some people from our ward and the Relief Society President from our ward told me that after I got called to my position, some girl in the ward came up to her and expressed her concern with me being in a Stake Relief Society position. She didn't think that I was fit for the calling, at first I thought this was really funny and then it really hit me. When I was in college I had regional callings and institute callings where I was in charge of huge activities. In all of my other wards, I have always been someone that the bishop could go to for anything and they used me all over the ward. I felt needed and everyone thought that I was a really good person. I have always believed myself to be a great person, spiritually and personally. When this girl questioned me for this calling, I had to step back and look at myself. I have not got involved in our ward at all, I have had a hard time feeling like I belong. No one knows that I have a strong testimony because I haven't shared it. Sorry for the long story, but I really need to make changes in my life. I used to love making goals and I was so good at keeping them, I have to get back to my old self. Hopefully I can stick to it!
I have 30 Things To Do Before I am 30 and my Goals for 2013.
{Left over goals from 25 Things To Do Before I am 25}
1. Have a Summerfest Booth
2. Design my Own Fabric with Spoonflower
3. Go to Nepal
4. Go to the East Coast in the Fall to see the Leaves
5. Read the Bible Dictionary
6. Train for a Triathlon or Half Marathon
7. Do a Personal Photo Project
8. Visit all of the Temples in Utah.
Temples that I have left to visit:
Timpanogous
Provo
Vernal
Payson
Monticello
St. George
Brigham
Provo II
9. Learn Illustrator
{New Goals}
10. Hike Half-Dome in Yosemite, CA
11. Photograph a Ghost Town
12. Oregon Coast- Clamming and Crabbing
Cole and I went August 11-15, 2012, see our trip here.
13. Salmon Fishing
14. Make the Nieces a Quilt
15. Finish Applique Quilt
Finished December 2012
16. Do a High Fashion Photo Shoot
17. Read Jesus the Christ
18. Apply to be a Documentary Photographer
19. Take Piano/Musical Instrument Lessons
20. Learn Book Making
21. Make a Meal from the Land
22. Cross Country Ski Bryce Canyon
23. Go to all of the National Parks in Utah
Bryce Canyon: May 30, 2012
Zions
Arches
Capitol Reef
Canyonlands
Glen Canyon
24. Perfect Bread Making- Artisan Breads and the Chemistry behind it
25. Perfect Cake Making
26. Design an Inspiration Wedding Shoot.
August 24, 2012- It was published on the Top Wedding Blog-Style Me Pretty!!
27. Perfect Cheese Making
28. Learn Print Making
29. Master Machine Quilting
30. Make 30 Things for an Organization in Need; Toys/Animals/Dolls
I am really excited to start on these goals! I hope that I can accomplish them!!
{2013 Goals!!}
Spiritual
Go to the Temple Once a Week (I am trying to go on Tuesdays if any one wants to join!)
Find 1 Name a Month in Family History
Write in Journal Once a Week
Business
Make over a Certain Amount
Get a Bigger Social Media Following
Set Hours and Stick to Them
Physical
Workout Once a Week
More Outdoor Activities; Cross Country Skiing, Biking, Climbing, Hiking...
No New Clothes until I loose 30 pounds
Financial
No More Big Purchases until Everything is Paid for
No New Clothes of Fabric until Summer
Wahoo! I am doing good so far! Hopefully I can stay on track and become a better person!
Those are really awesome goals and really inspiring. I know how you feel about your ward. I am kind of in the same boat. I don't have time for activities because I have night classes and I don't really know anyone. I really like what you said about trying harder and using your strengths and talents to make it work. Thank you for such a great post!
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