Thursday, September 16, 2010
A Day for Celebration!
Today is such a great day, I just have to blog about it! I know it is so dumb, but people don't really read blogs right? So I am just writing how I feel right now and if certain people read it...I am sorry! I have not been as busy, so I have had extra time to do what I want and it has been fabulous. So today I have a ton of things that I want to get done, I probably won't get most of them done, but I am going to try!
I had institute today and it was so great, Brother Larsen knows how to really bring the spirit in. After institute I needed to run a few errands and then I planned to lock myself in my house and get everything done. Yesterday I went and picked beans at my grandpas and there were sooo many, so I decided that I would be able to can them. I was going to do it by myself, I told my grandma this and she just seemed so worried that I wouldn't be able to do it by myself. I could tell she wanted me to have her help me. I love my grandma! Although I wanted to get other things done while I was canning, it will be fun to be with my grandma, I love learning from my grandma!
Other things that I have to do, I just bought some paint to refinish some furniture for the bridal fair, I am way excited to see how they turn out. I also need to make some banana bread and work on a quilt that I started the other night. We had our first meeting for Quilt Guild on Tuesday and I am excited to get back into quilting. I know I am such a nerd, but I love being domestic! I love the satisfaction that comes after you have finished a project, I really do thrive on this!
All these things are great, but the real reason for my day of celebration is having victory! I wanted to put this at the end of the post and maybe not as many people would read it! Haha! As I was driving home from institute, I drove past the guy that I dated this last winter, so I stopped and chatted with him for a bit. Let me just give a little background...I was in love with this guy and I thought that I had found the one. He told me that it was mutual and I trusted him. He broke things off 8 months ago today (I know I am crazy, but girls keep track of things like that!), he broke my heart, he ended things without much explanation and no notice. It has not been the easiest since then, I haven't fully healed until today. During the summer I went on a lot of dates, I even kind of started to date someone, but I ruined it because I was so scared of dating because of what happened with this other guy. I have not let myself really fall for someone, because I lost my trust in men. I saw this guy a couple of weeks ago at church, he had just came back from the summer. After I went home I had a break down and I wished that I was with him still, I didn't even talk to him, but the ache came back. I was so mad! I thought I was over it. But today as I drove away from him, I had no feelings towards him, I even started to cry with joy that I no longer was being effected by him. I was so grateful! It was kind of a weird feeling, I was filled with the spirit and I can now fully let go and move on with my life. I kept crying while I drove home because I was so happy! I passed Temptation Cupcakes and decided that I needed to celebrate, so I treated myself with an apricot cupcake! It was delicious!
Life is so great! I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for all that he has given me. I am truly blessed! I am so excited to spend time and increase my talents today, I know that sounds dumb, but it truly brings me joy!